Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Adoption (non) update

It's been a week since we got the news every prospective adoptive parent fears -- and so far we haven't heard anything more.  The agency isn't sure what is going on, and of course we're just as clueless.

We fell in love with a specific boy, and that's why we started the adoption process when we did.  But now it's looking like we won't be able to adopt him.

People have asked me specifics, but it's like I told someone, "In the even things do work out and we are able to adopt him, it's his story and he should have the ability to share it or not share it, whatever he chooses."   I don't feel I can make that decision for him.

We are continuing in the process to adopt.  The agency said there has only been one other situation like this before, and it was settled within two weeks.  So, we're hoping and preparing for the best, but bracing that we are just facing empty arms.

As hard as Mother's Day has always been to someone who wants children, I told my husband the other day that I will NEVER attend church on Mother's Day again -- even once I have children.  I feel like this boy was a child of my heart, but all I will likely hear this winter and spring in the house is silence.  No reading of Harry Potter, playing with K'nex, or grumbling about chores and school work.  (We were planning on adopting an older child, and I even had begun purchasing a few small things for him.)

1 comment:

  1. I'm sorry to hear things aren't going the way you planned. You have to trust God because He knows what's in your heart. God will give you the child He wants you to have when He wants you to have him/her. I know it's frustrating when things don't turn out the way we want. Keep praying and thanking God for the child He will bless you & your husband with. I will keep you both in my prayers :)